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| You ask me what's going on in my life and I'll tell you I'm looking for a job, and I want to move out of my parents house, that I'm lonely and wish that I was in a relationship and that I am in debts way past my head and the heads of 20 people standing on top of me. But what I'm really dealing with is existence. How to make this all worthwhile. To spend my time here making a difference. Doing what I care about and realizing that its all over WAY too soon. "I just don't know how to live in a world where my dad doesn't exist." Our inevitable mortality creeps up on us eventually. | | |
| 22 years to realize that I haven't even yet begun to live. I feel
like its too late but if I don't start now then I'll never get my feet
off the ground.
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| For a moment of solitude
For a moment of rest
A moment to realize what's past and what's to come
I'm wrapped up in the present with no respect for what I'm living
Midterms, deadlines, graduation...and all I want to do is lay in the grass.
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| I haven't felt this lost in a really long time.
I wish that somehow everyone I've ever loved could give me a hug tonight.
Letting yourself breakdown is so hard to do.
Maybe I'm not as strong as I thought.
I am filled with the human frailties.
I am misdirected and I am scared.
I'm crying uncontrollably about nothing at all.
And I love my friends SO MUCH :)
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| First of all...this new guy that my sister hired is 18....second of
all...he's still in HS...third of all he lives with his
girlfriend...she's 16....she doesn't go to HS....she's pregnant...he
left her at work today and drove home because they got in a
fight. He delivers 1/3 of the amount of papers that I do...but I
had to stop what I was doing to drive her home.
Moral of the story...GUYS can go FUCK themselves.
That is all.
Bowl game today and shopping with Carolyn.
One more day of work at the Trib...maybe forever but probably not.
New Years in Two days.
School starts up again on Tuesday.
Panama for Spring Break...totally psyched :)
Peace
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